The second game in this It’s Finally Over series of games is composed of questions to ask yourself. All of these games stem from my own need to understand why my marriage had failed, how I had failed in my marriage, how my husband had failed me, and then, eventually, what I could do to get myself out of the funk and on my path to being the contented—or even happy—person that deserved to be.
Why did it take so long to finally begin the process of ending this horrible relationship? For so long there was no love between us, there were no conversations (that is, if you don’t count his insulting me and me telling him to stop insulting me), there was nothing except a past. That seems to be a critical question. Here are some things that I thought of in response; you can add to this list or change it to suit your situation. These are simply some basic questions to help you contemplate your marriage and yourself.
Did I stay in the marriage so long because I felt that:
-- I deserved to be in a bad relationship?
-- I deserved the insults?
-- There was truth in the insults?
-- I was committed to the marriage (I had to stay in)?
-- I could not survive on my own?
-- I could not support myself?
-- I could not find anyone better to love me?
-- No one else would love me?
-- I would be alone?
-- He needed me?
-- He would be lost without me?
-- I was being selfish?
-- The marriage would improve?
-- It was just a temporary bump?
-- I would be a failure if my marriage failed?
-- It wasn’t so bad?
-- It was too hard, confusing and uncertain to embark on a divorce?
-- I was the failure and I needed to improve to make things better?
-- If I was better, wiser, stronger, lovelier, smarter, thinner, …, the marriage would improve?
-- Life together was better than life alone?
-- I still loved him?
-- It takes a long time for love to work its way out of your system.