A Minute to Myself (151)
A Minute to Myself (152)

The Art of Sighing

It seems that I have become quite a sigher of late. It’s loud and it’s earnest; I guess you could call it a full-body sigh. I can feel my entire body sinking into that sigh as it exits me. I slump down, I make a full-blown exhalation that is not subtle as sighs are supposed to be, and even my face seems to seep and sink into the sigh. It is a perfect reflection of how I feel.

Sigh. It’s how I feel about everything right now. It’s how I feel about my co-teacher who tries to get into a discussion about everything that I do with the students as if he is the class psychologist and I am there as some kind of non-initiate watching how he intuits all there is to know about a student. The sigh reflects my relationship with my daughters: I am the holder of the keys, the pocketbook, the kitchen utensils and sponge, and occasionally a sounding board, for good and for bad.

A sigh certainly reflects how I feel when I leave work and most interactions with people come to an end. Midlife Slices commented on a post the other day that if something were to happen to her husband, she would be happy to continue her life with just friends and family around. But what do you do, other than sigh, if you don’t have friends and family around to cover that hole? Do you just sit in the hole and keep excavating? And even when you try or hope to get out of it, what if there are no rungs to climb up with? It doesn’t always work that you have family nearby, and it certainly doesn’t always work that you have friends who are nearby and who are available to offer rungs in the form of time together. It just isn’t so easy to fill a life with people and interactions just because you want to.

A sigh. A sigh because sometimes, a writer doesn’t want to express the sensation of being alive in little bits when the totality is overwhelming. A sigh would be the equivalent of that picture that you use to “paint a thousand words.” That is my kind of sigh. It feels good when it comes out. It feels as if mind and body are commiserating together, for the benefit, surely, of the overwhelmed me, helping me overcome the feeling of being overwhelmed. As the heavy, charged air exits in a sigh, I feel lighter and fresher.

This is my kind of therapy: sigh therapy.  

Comments

Laura of Rebellious Thoughts of a Woman

Beth, a sigh has a more emotional aspect to it that simply breathing.

Lori, the sighing is a way, perhaps, of getting the depleted air out of me, freeing up the dead air for some fresh, purposeful air to come in.

Pseudo, I belong to a book club, but we get together every other month and sometimes I miss for mommy duties, and not outside friendships have developed. So it's good, but not enough for this needy woman.

April, good to know that at some point there will be balance in the air that comes in and the air that goes out.

Jane, frustration, yes, I think that is definitely a source of the deep-sighs. When the thoughts and intentions that you put out are repeatedly confounded, there's nothing to do but try to release your tension and frustration and hurt.

Well, I divorced the bastard husband but we're still in this house to my extreme frustration and terminal disappointment.

Thanks for coming by and reading and commenting.

JC, too bad that one sigh is not enough, but so many keep coming out.

Talon, I hope so too! Good air in, bad air out. Sigh.

Linda, so a sigh is his sign to come to attention before there are words that develop. Smart man.

Linda, the simple things in life are never so simple, even the sighs can be analyzed.

Jessica, thanks and back at you.

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